Hi,
this is Glenn telling you a little about me and what has led me to
create this website
In 2005 I was new to the world of self help and had no concept or
experience of spiritual growth.
In fact ironically I booked to go on a workshop that I thought was
going to make me understand more about others and how to get them to
align with me. In short, I wanted more power.
So there I was flying half way around the world to attend a workshop on
something I didn't know anything about and I hadn't even heard the name
of the workshop before!
Peter Ralston was running a month-long retreat, the first week of which
was entitled an Ontology Workshop, or "Experience the Nature of Being".
Peter started introducing me and 15 others to the possibility that what
we assume is real can be challenged and seen as simply an idea held
firmly by the mind.
Throughout the eight days we confronted and challenged a lot. I hated
it and was counting down the hours.
I didn't hate the workshop or the teacher or the environment or the
other participants but something inside felt confronted and was
screaming to go. About half way through the workshop Peter quoted
somebody which had a profound impact on me.
He said if you can hold the question "Who am I?" in your awareness for
three days, the same way a feather would gently sink and sway to the
bottom of a lake, you will be enlightened.
The last one and a half days of the workshop were to contemplate such a
question. The workshop finished and I left Texas to head for San
Francisco. I continued to contemplate "Who am I?". On the ride
to the airport, at the airport, in the plane, at the hotel, that
afternoon, that evening, right up until dropping off to sleep.
As soon as I woke there the question was again, and I held it in my
awareness until later that morning when the three days were up.
Nothing had changed and nothing happened. Oh well, I will just have to
try again some other time. Maybe this is more difficult than I thought.
But I do remember reading about Peter's experience. He held the
question for three days and then let the question go and carried on
with his life. That is when he got the experience of reality.
So, remembering that, I happily let go and enjoyed my week in that
great city San Francisco.
At the end of the week I was heading to Napa Valley, California for
another eight-day retreat.
This was just as intense and challenging as Peter's workshop but in a
different way.
If we weren't crying we were laughing for eight days
straight as we challenged our childhood patterns and beliefs.
The second-to-last morning we were doing a very intense exercise
involving confronting everything that we were frustrated, angry and
annoyed with about ourselves.
This was a dark-side confrontation letting loose with mallets and
cushions and a lot of yelling, swearing and intensity.
Then suddenly without warning, maybe half way through this 40 minute
exercise I changed from bashing to giggling and laughing. I was
awakening. This was one of the very definite signs of spiritual
awakening.
I was aware of who I am. The one that I thought I was split into two,
so
to speak. The one I always thought I was was still there but now there
was another me; the real me.
It was hilarious.
How could I have been so blind? How could I have been
fooled into thinking I was my inner voice? My story? So this is what
awakening is!
After a few minutes of laughing, while everyone else was still swearing
and bashing, I suddenly had the urge to take out the frustration at
being tricked.
I gladly resumed bashing but this time I was empowered. I knew I could
never suffer again.
Nothing had quite the same importance, nothing meant so much about me,
I had less to defend. I could simply be who I was and be OK.
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